Hard to believe a week has passed since Isaiah was born! The week has been incredible. I didn’t believe my heart would double in size the way that it has but wow – motherhood is amazing. Hard, and overwhelming at times, but absolutely amazing.
Here’s the update for 1 week postpartum.
I’m still pretty sore and stretched and bruised feeling. I can tell when I have done a little too much because I feel it more. But I have a 2 year old and it’s kind of hard to just lay and do nothing. Plus I would go stir crazy. I’m still having bleeding and occasional cramping, but mostly the cramping has stopped. I’m down to 126 for my weight and had zero post partum swelling this time around. I have also had just a little bit of the night sweats. My milk came in around day 3, and just like last time I have plenty of engorgement and leaking. They are kind of like fire hydrants and I pretty much walk around with a wet shirt all day. I frequently have poop on my hands, and Elijah is the only one who has bathed every day this week around here.
The absolute hardest part of the week. The first few days were hard and excruciatingly painful. I was clenching my teeth, curling my toes, and crying through every feeding. I made the decision on day 3 with the incredible support of my husband and midwife to stop and exclusively pump. I could see the pain that I felt with breastfeeding Elijah coming back, and it was hampering my bond with Isaiah instead of strengthening it. I could see myself dreading feedings and feeling resentment for him needing to eat all the time. I pumped for a day, and got to the nighttime where he didn’t need to eat, he just needed comfort from mom. I was in worse shape thinking I couldn’t feed him, that I just said forget and put him on. And it was okay. Still some initial latch pain, but okay. Weve been feeding since then. He’s got a pretty good lip tie that’s causing some discomfort, and he’s having some really short, but frewquent feedings. But he’s a week old and we can work on that in the coming weeks.
It’s been a rollercoaster of a week here which is expected. I mentioned the breastfeeding issues above, and I think that’s what caused a lot of it. But it’s so much easier to manage this time around knowing I’ve done it before and knowing I’ve already allowed myself to make changes if need be instead of pushing through something that just isn’t working. I really feel like the way my birth went has been so beneficial to dealing with the hormonal rollercoaster that is postpartum.